I have been trying to figure out what I could reward myself with as I continue to take care of myself, slim down, and make better choices. Normally I would have said we could go out and eat, or get a decadent dessert. Ummmm, no longer a good option. So after talking it over with Bear we have decided that he is going to buy me something that I would not normally buy for myself each time I reach a new belt level. I have 2 friends who are having jewelry parties before Christmas. So I am picking out a couple of items that he can give me after each graduation. I don’t wear jewelry very much – I generally am not that put together! But I found a ring that I like and I love bracelets. Sooooo – I ordered the ring and a bracelet. I get the ring as soon as it comes in and he will give me the bracelet once I earn my yellow belt. I wonder what I will order at the other friend’s jewelry party????
I have noticed something interesting. The stronger I have become through TKD, the more I have embraced my feminine side. I have started to wear make-up again. I want to wear clothes that look nice. I am paying attention to my hair (though my hair is definitely not paying attention to anything that I tell it to do!). I am keeping my toe nails painted. I took a long soak in the tub the other night. Just an interesting little change. Maybe it is that I don’t feel like I need to try to blend into the background anymore – that I am no one except Little Bear’s and Baby Bear’s Mama, and Bear’s Wife – that I am worthy to be someone in my own right. I don’t know. I try not to delve too deeply into my own psyche – it is scary in there!